Beat of the Week May 16th to May 22nd

Ok gal pals and guy buds this weeks beat of the week is The Lonely by Christina Perri....This song is amazing and I choose it for several different reasons. First off this week marks the one year anniversary of my best friends death, since her death I find it hard to have normal friendships and relationships and thus I am left alone most of the time. For the most part when I am alone I do not feel lonely but this week I was feeling extremely empty, lonely, and emotionless. The lyrics "the silent sound of loneliness wants to fallow me to bed" describes what I was feeling very much this week. Another reason I choose this song is that it also describes the journey that I have been embarking on in the last few months and will continue on for a while, the journey that this blog fallows, the journey of becoming me again, picking up the pieces, and becoming a full version of myself. This song represents everything about this week and my life. "I'm a ghost of a girl that I want to be most, I'm the shell of a girl that I used to know well".

How to be Alone

Alight so I have been meaning to post the link to this video for a long long time. This video is called How to be Alone, it is a poem complimented with a video and is 100% true. I urge you to check it out and try out some of what it says. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k7X7sZzSXYs

Beat of the Week May 9- May 15th 2011

Alrighty so I am going to start doing what I am calling beats of the week. Basically these are songs I am either working on a dance for, really speak to me, really get me, oooorrrrrr the repeat button in my head is stuck on them. This week the Beat of the week is Hear You Me- Jimmy Eat World!!!! Yay!!!! Now it is no secret that I love J.E.W but this song is something special to me. For me this song is a perfect running song, dancing to blow off steam/stress song, and also the song that can if given the chance make me tear up fast. The words .... "and if you were with me tonight, I'd sing to you one last time, a song for a heart so big that god just wouldn't let live" are the words that I sing and wanna sing over and over again to my late best friend Chantelle. This song is perfect for this week the week before the one year anniversary of her death

Heavenly Cheesecake Brownies

Sooo one of my dearest best friends and I were one day like would it not be awesome if you combined together cheesecake and brownies!!!! Well guess what???!!!!! We totally did it!!!!! And here it is!!!!!

What you will need!!!!!:
1 (8 ounce) package cream cheese, softened (I use light cream cheese)

1/4 cup white sugar

1 egg

1 cup semisweet chocolate chips

1/4 cup butter

1 cup semisweet chocolate chips

1/2 cup white sugar

2 eggs

2/3 cup all-purpose flour

1/2 teaspoon baking powder

1/4 teaspoon salt

How to do this:

1) Pre-heat your oven machine to 350 and take out a 9 inch baking sheet.

2) Combine in a medium bowl your sugar and softened cream cheese until it is smooth. When smooth add in your egg and add in one cup of chocolate chips.

3)Melt your chocolate chips by bring water to bowl in a large sauce pan and placing a heat proof large bowl in it with the chocolate chips. Add in your butter to the chocolate chips and stir until melted. Then add in your other two eggs, rest of sugar, baking soda, flour and salt.

4) Place half of the brownie mixture in the greased pan then place all other the cream cheese mixture over top of it. Place the remaining brownie mixture over top of both other layers and use a spoon to smooth over top.

5)Place in oven for about 25 to 30 minutes then take out let cool, cut into pieces and enjoy!!!!

PS.....These work best when kept cool, like in a refrigerator!!!